2/12/09
yeah, i still sort of dont know. it’s hard to explain, i sort of dont like talking about it.. i don’t know why though. alex tried talking to me about it last night but i couldn’t, i know he was just concerned and i do feel bad telling him over again that i didn’t want to talk about it.. anyway, i did my english speaking task on tuesday, as well as my chem presentation i think it went okay. Chem wasn’t too bad i was nervous but i love my chemistry class so im really comfortable around them. English on the other hand was scary, a one on one interview with the teacher about the prescribed text and two other texts. I was extremely nervous, i dont know why, whenever i asked other people how theirs went they said it was just like a conversation and it was really laid back but i was so nervous. When i entered the room she asked how i was and i told her i was really nervous, she made small talk by telling me about her experiences with speeches in highschool but i was still scared. We kept going off topic and i couldnt really tell her the things i had learnt about the cricible, she asked me a question on edurance, something about how endurance is depicted in the text and i completely blanked out, i started stuttering and ended up stopping and apologising but miss was really nice, anyway, i didn’t think i did well, she did mention i did well and i spoke well as i walked out but i found out she said that to francois too, which im not surpised about but he said she probably said it to everyone.. i got my mark back today, 13/15 im pretty pleased with it, im probably ranking 4th or top 5 for advanced english, for now. so, i guess even if other stuff doesn’t work out ive still got my academic life to keep me busy, and a boyfiend that’ll keep me sane, i love him so much, the one person other than my mum i can count on for absolutely anything, he’s amazing.
